Gloria...

Gloria

How can my fate be so cruel?
Not even a week I had with you
Sitting down on my coach listening to my MP3
Hoping it will block out memories of you and me
Separated by circumstance, it was fates decision
Know my mind begs me “make an incision”
Deep into my flesh, just numb the pain
Silence these thoughts saying “you’ll never see her again”
My heart, I am surprised, weeps for lost time we could have shared
I waited far too long, because I was scared
Now a new fear fills me, the fear of never seeing you
I pray silently “don’t let it be true”
I want to hear your voice and all of your stories
I don’t care if they are dull or mindlessly boring
I just love the sound of your voice, like a thousand flutes
Torture it is to be without it, as though I’m left deaf and mute
I pull out a smoke, they help me think
But still it seems, I am unable to speak
I may fall apart, tears fill my eyes
Here I was thinking I could no longer cry
My loved ones comfort me but the one I want cannot
Because you have left, I sit here and rot
Think positive I’m told, learn from this experience
How can I learn anything, from losing that which is dearest?
Yes I know our time was short, so I say “just breathe”
Is it my fault, I where my heart on my sleeve
Once again I feel empty, once again on my own
To comfort myself I repeat “I’m better off alone”
But we both know, that is naught but a lie
I curse myself, why was I so shy
I should have asked you out, after the first day
Still I wonder; would things have turned out ok
My mind is a blur, Thousands of thoughts racing through
That night on the beach haunts me to
Feel you fragile frame beside me, The feel of your lips locked with mine
God how I wish that we had, had more time
The look in your eyes… I will never see it again
Not only have I lost a love, I have lost a friend
I do not understand, how could fate be so cruel?
I found someone who loves me for me, And not even a week I had with you…